Just Three More Weeks

In three weeks I will be done with my final two classes to get my degree. I am, as usual, behind. I will be so damn glad when this is over.

On the weight loss front: last week I lost zero pounds, the week before one pound. I've been one pounding it (or no pounding it) for the last nine weeks. I have to get my ass in gear. I want to hit 100 pounds down by my one year "lose this fat ass" anniversary. By February 27 I need to lose 38 pounds to reach that goal. Thirty-eight pounds in four months. I better be able to do that. How friggen pathetic if I don't.

You all have my permission to tell me I am pathetic if on February 27 I do not weigh less than 217 pounds.

The next three weeks I'll be with my face Word and buried under books. I may not be commenting on your blogs much now but I am reading.  After Nov. 17 I will return to leaving lame comments on your posts.

I'm Here-ish

Another two weeks gone by. When the ability to construct coherent sentences is lost, bullet points to the rescue!

• Last weekend I had massive sinus headache. I attributed it to the change in weather and tried to tough it out.
• This weekend it got worse.
• Monday to the doctor.
• Sinus infection, double ear infection, and streaky red throat.
• I thought I was getting some energy back and was starting to kick mono to the curb and then got the head crud.
• The nine year old brought home the dreaded "There is a case of lice in your child's class" letter. They were all checked and will be checked again in two weeks. Oh Lord please do not let us get lice!!
• Ken is doing ok. He sounds phlegmy but says it is nasal. I have to remember I'm not his mother and let it go. Next CAT Scan is mid-November.
• I'm pretty much bringing up the rear is Allan's challenge. I've been averaging one pound a week.
• Yeah, not setting the world on fire here.
• Down to 255.
• The challenge is 1200 calories, I've been more like 1400.
• I have been more sedentary than usual with the whole not feeling good thing.
• I think the stress is effecting my weight loss.
• Now, that isn't me making a big excuse- there have been no paleo free range pumpkin muffin lattes here. I think it is a small factor. Small.
• Lisa inspired me to bust out my giant hula hoop again. Prior to the head crud, the girls & I were having fun with it.
• I still can't keep the damn thing up.
• My nine year old spins this giant hoop like a pro! It's so funny to see this little stick kid with this huge hoop.
• The four year old has mastered the kid hoop.
• Mama is the only hoop challenged female in the house.
• To all my bitchez out there dealing with some serious shit lately- I'm hoping you will each find peace in your circumstances. You are strong and can handle this situation. Love you all.

MeMeMeMeMe

I figured I should post something since Norma gave me such a nice shout out. I have no brain power to come up with a post. Allan to the rescue! Allan listed some questions for FMT (Friend Making Tuesday, good thing cuz I prefer to make my friends on Tuesdays).

1) I am how many years old, weigh this much, and aspire to weigh this much....



         I am 43. I weigh 257. I started at 317 on February 27, 2012. My doctor told me he would be   happy if I weighed 170-180. I really have no idea what my goal weight is. Right now I am aiming for 175 and will reevaluate when I get there. FYI, I am 5'10".


2) I am following a great plan, and this is what I do....

        I try to eat foods that don't have ingredients. You know- chicken, eggs, pears, carrots, romaine, etc. I drink a swimming pool worth of water every day.


3) When faced with a decision of whether to eat something in moderation or abstain, I choose to....

     Dude, I weigh 257 pounds, I have to abstain. I know I am not strong enough for moderation right now. If I eat some crap it is very hard for me to get back on track. I admit it, I am weak when it comes to food.



4) I am employed as this, or I am not working but used to be this...



    
        I am a bookkeeper/accountant. In two months I will have that piece of paper that says I am an accountant. Never mind I've been doing it for 17 years.


5) I have pets, and they are, named....


      I don't have a pet right now. We had to put down our beloved Boxer mix, Bernice, a few months ago. I still miss her. She was the world's best dog, there will never be another dog like her.




6) My favorite snack food is.... and I can eat this many of them...


 
       I love anything chocolate. I can eat a ton of it. Just because I can doesn't mean I should.




7) I blog because......

         I've been blogging for years but only since February here. I always said blogging was free therapy. I've got a great group of blog buds whom I refer to as my tribe (in my head I call some of them "mah bitchez" I don't do that here because I don't want to offend anyone). I love the support I have here.



Uh, yeah...the end.

Another Manic Monday

Last week: 258
This week: 258

No change, no excuses.

Friday Kenny had the endoscopy to see what was up with the trouble he has swallowing. No tumor! Of course that was the big thing we were worried about even though we didn't say it out loud. Cuz, you know, if you don't say it, it won't be true.

He does have some widening of the esophagus and some thickening in other places. This is all a by-product of the radiation. There isn't anything they can do about it but they also don't think it will get any worse. He just has to be careful about chewing his food really well and noting what gives him trouble and avoiding it. Thank God.

Next stop, the oncologist. I forget when that appointment is.

Oddly busy at work today so I have to boogie.

Checking In

Weigh in: 258
2 pound loss
Not great, thought it would be higher with last week's constipation issue resolved.

I called my doctor on Friday because I am still overwhelmingly tired. He said what I figured he would say. Nothing he could do, it's only been six weeks since last visit, he told me it could take a few months... Then he said the thing that made me want to throat punch him: You are a bit older now and it may take your body longer to heal.  Not what I wanted to hear.  He advised rest and don't get stressed. Bahahaha!

Friggen mono.

Lunch

Last week a big theme on the blogs was school lunch.

Buy or bring? What to bring? What can they buy?

Some students are boycotting the school lunch because the government has issued new guidelines on what can be sold for lunch.

My question is: when did lunch become so damn special that it requires treats and sparkles and rainbows? It's lunch, not a five course meal at a four star.

Today my fourth grader took turkey on whole wheat (dry), apple slices and a Capri Sun Roaring Waters. She also takes a water bottle to leave on her desk. (Can I tell you how much I love that the teacher lets them do this?)

Let's see... ok, the Capri Sun probably isn't the best option. The sandwich is her sandwich of choice. Chunks of turkey, no cheese, no mayo, no mustard, nothing, just dry on some wheat bread. How weird is that? Her second choice sandwich is peanut butter. No jelly just peanut butter. She was ecstatic that she got to bring apple today. Last week she had banana three days in a row. Hey, we didn't want to waste them.

That's it. No bag of chips, no cookies, no candy. I'm not saying she never gets a "treat" in her lunch. I am saying they are few and far between. She needs good, healthy food to get her through an afternoon of learning. She needs food that will help her perform at peak levels, not sugary crap that will have her crashing 40 minutes later.

Think of how crappy the crap foods make you feel. Why would you want to do that to your kid?

Imagine being the teacher in a classroom of twenty-eight kids who just ingested sugary shit at lunch. Would you want to be that teacher? Hell no!

Sometimes we make this stuff way harder than it needs to be.

Relief

Ah, relief. I feel like I lost 20 pounds!

Thus ends the TMI. For now anyway.