Thanksgiving (Late Edition)

I had a lovely almost totally computer free weekend.

Thanksgiving was nice. I didn't kill my mother or any of my brothers so- success! Eating was good. Not Whole 30 because I did eat stuffing (but not much, it was too salty).

I weighed on Friday. I lost four pounds! You can lose weight I did go to a few stores. I actually detest shopping on a normal day so Black Friday is like torture for me. Our tv was fried during Sandy and the repairman quoted $198 to fix it. So not worth it. A neighbor lent us a tv but we didn't want to keep it too long. My oldest works at the store with the red bullseye logo and they give their employees a decent discount. She was home from college and unfortunately for me, Black Friday was the day she could go with me. We got to the store around 7:30 Friday morning and it was... empty! It looked like any other day. We got the tv and a few other things and walked right up to a register when we were ready to check out.

Had a mommy and daughter day on Saturday. My four year old actually called it that- mommy/daughter day. That kid is too much. We watched The Lorax. It was cute. Then we watched Tangled. Well, they did. I watched my eyelids for a little while.

Sunday was catch up on laundry, cleaning and general household nonsense. Now I am at work and ready to bang my head on the desk at the idiocy of the man I work for. Pretty much back to normal.

Hope you all had a great holiday.

Begin Again

I've basically been wallowing in shit the last few weeks. I'm not going to get into it all because I just don't want to go there right now. Suffice it to say between the storm, husband getting sick after storm, money, job, school, and assorted other shit my head has been firmly up my ass. I have eaten everything. Yes, everything.

I weighed 278 this morning. I gained back 22 pounds. I did not want to write this. I wanted to hide and "wait for 218" before showing you guys. Then I remembered I want no bullshit. If I can't be honest, especially with myself, then what the fuck is the point?

In the last three or four days I've read some things that have really smacked me upside the head. Jane, Norma, Jenn, Plum Petals, Leah, RaeRae, everyone over at the No Bullshit Zone reminded me this is not what I want.

So there it is. Begin again.

Nor'easter

We still do not have power. And now we have a nor'easter coming our way.

My neighbor got a robocall last night saying we have to evacuate by 6:00 tonight. I didn't get the call because my phone is through Comcast so no power = no phone. I called the police station for confirmation. When I told the cop we've never flooded he said it is up to us if we leave. We are a few long blocks from the river and it would have to rise even higher than it did during the hurricane to get to us.

I'll bring the girls to my parent's or brother's and go back and put stuff up high just in case.

I have a headache.

Little House on the Jersey Shore

I'm at my office charging things and updating family via Facebook. Jenn emailed me so I want to give you a quick update.

My house has no power, no phones, only spotty cell service. But our house is still standing and we are alive and unhurt.

I live in Ocean County, NJ. On the same road as the Mantoloking Bridge. Google it if you want to cry.

I hope my blog bitches in the area are ok.

Just Three More Weeks

In three weeks I will be done with my final two classes to get my degree. I am, as usual, behind. I will be so damn glad when this is over.

On the weight loss front: last week I lost zero pounds, the week before one pound. I've been one pounding it (or no pounding it) for the last nine weeks. I have to get my ass in gear. I want to hit 100 pounds down by my one year "lose this fat ass" anniversary. By February 27 I need to lose 38 pounds to reach that goal. Thirty-eight pounds in four months. I better be able to do that. How friggen pathetic if I don't.

You all have my permission to tell me I am pathetic if on February 27 I do not weigh less than 217 pounds.

The next three weeks I'll be with my face Word and buried under books. I may not be commenting on your blogs much now but I am reading.  After Nov. 17 I will return to leaving lame comments on your posts.

I'm Here-ish

Another two weeks gone by. When the ability to construct coherent sentences is lost, bullet points to the rescue!

• Last weekend I had massive sinus headache. I attributed it to the change in weather and tried to tough it out.
• This weekend it got worse.
• Monday to the doctor.
• Sinus infection, double ear infection, and streaky red throat.
• I thought I was getting some energy back and was starting to kick mono to the curb and then got the head crud.
• The nine year old brought home the dreaded "There is a case of lice in your child's class" letter. They were all checked and will be checked again in two weeks. Oh Lord please do not let us get lice!!
• Ken is doing ok. He sounds phlegmy but says it is nasal. I have to remember I'm not his mother and let it go. Next CAT Scan is mid-November.
• I'm pretty much bringing up the rear is Allan's challenge. I've been averaging one pound a week.
• Yeah, not setting the world on fire here.
• Down to 255.
• The challenge is 1200 calories, I've been more like 1400.
• I have been more sedentary than usual with the whole not feeling good thing.
• I think the stress is effecting my weight loss.
• Now, that isn't me making a big excuse- there have been no paleo free range pumpkin muffin lattes here. I think it is a small factor. Small.
• Lisa inspired me to bust out my giant hula hoop again. Prior to the head crud, the girls & I were having fun with it.
• I still can't keep the damn thing up.
• My nine year old spins this giant hoop like a pro! It's so funny to see this little stick kid with this huge hoop.
• The four year old has mastered the kid hoop.
• Mama is the only hoop challenged female in the house.
• To all my bitchez out there dealing with some serious shit lately- I'm hoping you will each find peace in your circumstances. You are strong and can handle this situation. Love you all.

MeMeMeMeMe

I figured I should post something since Norma gave me such a nice shout out. I have no brain power to come up with a post. Allan to the rescue! Allan listed some questions for FMT (Friend Making Tuesday, good thing cuz I prefer to make my friends on Tuesdays).

1) I am how many years old, weigh this much, and aspire to weigh this much....



         I am 43. I weigh 257. I started at 317 on February 27, 2012. My doctor told me he would be   happy if I weighed 170-180. I really have no idea what my goal weight is. Right now I am aiming for 175 and will reevaluate when I get there. FYI, I am 5'10".


2) I am following a great plan, and this is what I do....

        I try to eat foods that don't have ingredients. You know- chicken, eggs, pears, carrots, romaine, etc. I drink a swimming pool worth of water every day.


3) When faced with a decision of whether to eat something in moderation or abstain, I choose to....

     Dude, I weigh 257 pounds, I have to abstain. I know I am not strong enough for moderation right now. If I eat some crap it is very hard for me to get back on track. I admit it, I am weak when it comes to food.



4) I am employed as this, or I am not working but used to be this...



    
        I am a bookkeeper/accountant. In two months I will have that piece of paper that says I am an accountant. Never mind I've been doing it for 17 years.


5) I have pets, and they are, named....


      I don't have a pet right now. We had to put down our beloved Boxer mix, Bernice, a few months ago. I still miss her. She was the world's best dog, there will never be another dog like her.




6) My favorite snack food is.... and I can eat this many of them...


 
       I love anything chocolate. I can eat a ton of it. Just because I can doesn't mean I should.




7) I blog because......

         I've been blogging for years but only since February here. I always said blogging was free therapy. I've got a great group of blog buds whom I refer to as my tribe (in my head I call some of them "mah bitchez" I don't do that here because I don't want to offend anyone). I love the support I have here.



Uh, yeah...the end.